It comes in bouts..

And then there are some nights when you just want to cry, cry until the feeling passes – feeling numb, scared, and anxious as tears roll down on their own, like someone has opened a pool of emotions. You cry until you feel relieved, until you can breathe again, empty enough to fall asleep, and your eyes strain, heavy and sore . It comes in bouts, triggered by something seemingly out of nowhere, though I know exactly what sets it off. I'm so tired, endlessly tired, worn down to my core.