Just Another Day ...

I woke up to another day of the same old routine. Get up, start working, eat, sleep, and repeat. I'm stuck in a loop, going through the motions with no real purpose or direction. And to top it all off, my name means "direction," but I feel like my compass is broken.

I'm in my 30s, single, and just going with the flow. I don't know if I have any real goals or aspirations, and I'm just treading water. I see my friends and colleagues moving forward in their careers and personal lives, and I can't help but feel left behind.

It may sound like I am comparing myself to others ummm.. yes. Strangely I cannot help but compare, and it is so not me. I have always made my decisions and have been happy and content with my choices.

I heard someone say the human body changes every seven years. It seems that I am going through that change. I do not feel like myself anymore; something has shifted. Every time I reflect and figure out what, I draw a blank. This feeling numbs me sometimes. I feel stuck and suffocated. Almost feels like I am losing control of my life. I am standing at this crossroads of life where I do not know which direction to take...