Wondering Clouds

As I stand in dispair , Feeling the wind in my hair . In the deepest hour of the night , Where stars are shining bright . Thinking of distant times , Both good and bad . Now the only thing which will bring a smile , Is nothing but a Lil while where its just you and me And Nothing else in between . May be I'm far , But Our heartbeats will never grow us apart. No matter how difficult it is , This time will pass . Will be back in your arms , Just like before . And that momemt isn't very far, Until then feel me in ur heart ... Coz our heartbeats will never grow us apart ! 

 Life would be so much better If Only I wasn't a girl isn't it ??? Doesn't this question arise many a times in your mind ??? Be it hanging out with your brothers or your guy friends at deep hours of the night ... Or roaming around alone .... It doesn't matter how much freedom you have in your life ..at some point or other this must have come to u ... Oh you a girl can't take you there !!! Oh c'mon guys ... Give me a break ! Tell me one thing which guys can and girls can't ...we are doctors , engineers, professors actors ... So on and so ..forth still we get to hear this U CAN'T GO THERE PERIOD .The reason we are disallowed to do certain things are The Men themselves ,  just because there are 'These' men who can't stop leching women and the ones with us are all so protective ! Well then there is something called periods ...when people treat u as untouchables whoa ! Why ! U can't touch this... u can't do that sit here.. stay put ya alr...

Something happened today ... aah ! no why did I react like that I should have said something else ... ummm naaa it was just right I couldn't have been better !!! You are in a dilemma yes or no ... right or wrong correct incorrect tis when u wanna sleep it is then ur conscience awakens it seems like a movie goes on of how ur day went ...and with better possibilities and where u are at the drivers seat ! Helpless and how the only thing u do then is THINK >THINK>THINK>.. and sleep whats that ...???? Insomnia sets in !! I wonder will this thinking change anything or even any part of the day you lived ? It won't right .Isn't it pointless to go on brooding on the very same thing Again and Again . Just for once stop urself ... coz what is done is done we cannot really do anything about it infact over thinking will make it worse . You would long to go back to those moments only to alter them but that's most unlikely . Instead feel the moment . Always remember slumber ...

And then everything went blur as my brimming emotions came out as tears, but I didn't let them come down how could I??? everyone was so happy all around my friends waving wishing me luck which brought a big smile with mixed emotions both good and bad . I need to bid them adieu and start a new life ...the path ill tread on with my partner and not all alone and a family of my own . They say 'A person plays many roles in a life' that's what I will... now from a daughter to a daughter in law from a sister to a sister in law ...and so on . As I sit today hand in hand with the prince of my dreams happiness fills my heart but I long for a li'l while with my family for some more time and then ill be ready to walk with you where ill be all poised ,calm and composed to take care of  you . Till then Let me relive those memories once more Those childish desires to the naughty young girl  Who's been apple of her fathers eyes  has been a princess all her life ... And o...

Insecurity , a bit too much bad whereas just a li'l well that's alright ! Have you been standing there while your best friend talks to someone else and you are restless and how !? Why the attention is divided while I'm here s/he is My Person . Familiar to this ??? Seen it done that isn't it . ??? Well well well its something fairly common among all of us ...but its all in the perception of how we are seeing the situation . Some of us are irritated and walk away and some just wait there is dismay. May be that special someone isn't ignoring you on purpose its just as important as you are . And it is then we must stay put be there  no matter to whom your bestie talks for hours it is you whom Your Person will come back to coz the charm , the friendship  , the long chats , the sharing , the caring and all those happy moments wont fade in a flash . Reflect upon it ...Can that bond be replaced just because the other is busy for a while and u stand there insecure about him...

And when there is a storm outside the one inside me calms down ... 

Apprehensions .... We all have apprehensions  dont we ??? ... The what if's ?? and what if nots??  ... What if it does not work out ..  Is it really worth the sacrifices one makes ...to be what s/he does for the other . Well this leads to something like an emotional imbalance and then the ability to reason out even the simplest of thing  fades ... I must be sounding familiar isn't it . Indeed it is the state of many ... Its just that during these times one needs to just sit back calm down and let time do the talking... No matter how difficult it may be today but as time passes everything will fall into place .. Ah well ! if not everything most of it at least ! So folks next time u in a fix don't fight it ... Flow in accordance to what the situation is coz its temporary and wont last long if its bad assure urself that good is just around the corner . Let things be , And just Don't worry ! Whether good or bad , Never be sad . Coz it will make you wise , And ...

As we grow old friends grow apart priorities tailor and the only thing constant is change ! No matter how much how much we were close but today we stand as strangers in the crowd brush past each other but fail to recognize ...that's what life teaches you ' Move on ...keep the spirit alive ." and people will come and go the ones who are suppose to be... destined to be with you will always be .The more try hold that person the further she gets away from you its like a hand full of sand the more you tighten the fist , faster the sand slips away the only thing left is emptiness and you stare at it blankly . And then You' wait until its occupied by another which will bring in so much more and happiness galore.. As life moves on , we must too . Coz people change , and so should you  !